One thought, too many

Looking at the stack of books piled up on the study shelf, I am left to wonder, gosh! How much of the things I have read do I ACTUALLY remember? Curbing the existential anxiety, I guess the best way to remember what you have read is to show a keen interest in what you are reading. In the moment, how in tune are you with the words that you gleen over. Is the author making sense? Are you able to connect with the printed ink? Are you circling around some lines more often trying to relate it with previous readings Otherwise, why read that stuff in the first place. The above line is both a lesson in rigid thinking and hyper-practical. I am a habitual reader and a habitual forgetter. Forgetting things all the time gives me used to give me a sour sense of remorse. And then one day, over a conversation with a friend, he suggests, why don't you instead think of it as "You learn something new every time, every day". he then goes to add, "Fine! You may not rememb...

is the most important thing is the best that can happen Is what every self-help article will ever suggest you to do. I do not wish to be a whistleblower of sorts when I say this. But that's just my gut instinct. They why is it so tough? It is because in the age we live in instant gratification is given top most priority. Our brains shun the repetitiveness of things, claiming "what's the point!" That's where the 'Why, I started this' question becomes important. 4 years ago, on a cozy Sunday afternoon, I had decided to go to the gym and do something about my body. On the way, I remember getting bombarded by my inner voice "Dude, you don't know anything, what will you even do there" "You will injure yourself" "Treadmill? what if it's already taken?" Funny enough, none of those things happened, except for the treadmill being taken. But, I still worked out. Rusty form, no idea what I was doin...

The internet is a place where we get to learn a lot of stuff. These days you can learn how to fix (insert whatever it is that you want to fix here) over on the hyper fast net In villages, many where internet has just come to life, it has given birth to innovative methods of generating electricity, waste disposal etc. In the cities, it tells me where Rajesh is exactly so that I can time my lift just in accordance to his exact arrival and be on my way to another day at the office. So in short internet has helped us quite a lot, to know exactly how much it has helped you can google - 'advancements due to the internet' In this post, I wanted to touch up on a rather dark side of the moon internet. Well, again this also has been discussed extensively through many articles and ted talks, one of which is this one -  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C74amJRp730 - Digress ends here - One of the things that the internet does is, it makes me not want to call people to ask f...

What core? Ok, According to me and a few medical journals, everyone is made up of cores We got a, Health core Family core Friends and bonding with people core Work core.., currently the one in most stress for many but... BUT, the core that often gets missed is, The Ego core, The more I read about the nature of Ego the more I  feel like I shouldn't This I is full of ego. Ya, back to point, Have you felt its presence? I sure have. I have felt its overwhelm too. Many with whom I have come to cross path with, humans, they deny its presence. They Shoo me off. I truly feel, Ego core needs a constant check. We all have ego cores, even the saints with often deceptive yet perpetual smiles have it. We need to take great care of it. What does the Ego core feed on? It feeds on instant gratification activities mainly also, Jealousy. Comparison and a little bit of self-hate. I used to think that the Ego core suuuuucks. But, it ...

So I live in a big city. MUM-BAI. This city is big. I already mentioned that. Just warming you up. Ok, back to what my neurons meant to dispel. Cars. They are everywhere. Tempos and buses and tuk-tuks too. Mostly, this is a boon because? Helps in moving people and stuff like furniture and computers and whey protein most important. But, Drivers need to go easy on the honking! Everywhere you go in the city...peep-peep poop-poop at times peeeeeeeeeeeeeep at other times pooooooooooooooooop Also, some even invest in getting fancy peep-peep. Constant exposure to Peep-Peep does what? Well, I am no neuroscientist (but a big fan of Sam Harris) But, I can say this will 78.52% assurity that, Being exposed to constant peep-peep, activates that part of our brain which is responsible for detecting danger and giving us the sense that, we shouldn't be going there. Like a dark cave and stuff So when we navigate on the streets our minds constantly dabble in the ...

What happens when you start cleaning things. Like the dust settled in between the keys of your keyboard? (wait a second, there is dust settled in between the keys of my keyboard) Ok. So where were we? Ah! Cleaning. The place where I grew up to accidentally stamping on dog shit is Mumbai. Imp. Disclaimer: I am not from Bollywood, I am Bollywood. Mumbai is blessed with the occurrence of dust settling on your property, how much ever you may own. Your face is also your property BTW. If you travel in peak hours that's like from 5 am to 4 am, you will feel funny in the nose and your properties, like the back your phone cover slowly turning into a desert. While, I found travelling to be an unavoidable fate, at my home I do take up ownership of this dust. My tools are simple - a piece of cloth and a brush which saw the passage of my milk teeth at one point. So, every alternate day, I wake up a little early and get to cleaning. Cleaning the accessible areas and t...

Changing your current state. Don't move out, not really necessary, not saying that. It is to just go from point A (where sadness persists) to point B (where it could still persist, but it also might not, and maybe you see something new) What's point A? It could be your room, It most likely is. Big room, small room, even smaller room don't really matter. Point A could also be your office. Again, swanky or  dull don't matter, It could also be the park that you wander about every day, Then, it's time for a new park. Point is, *preachy line incoming* Sadness persists in the mundane. Mundane exists in the obvious and obvious exists in certainty. (I just made that line up) You get this special power after reading 8 billion self-help articles, you become a walking and talking self-help article. That was a digress. Ok, Back to what I was saying, * I am one plain cheese toasted sandwich heavier at this point* Yeah, ok, So changing...

This 'Top' searching needs to s-top. Ladies, you may continue. I am speaking of the tendency of us humans to bind our expectations on the 'top' contenders This TOP mentality has programmed us into believing that others that are not top are Blah. At least it did to me. But not now. These days I take the time out to call the not -so top contenders and listen to their offering. Why? Because you gotta give everyone a chance!  Like the divide between the Rich and poor. (poor even got the lower case on my sentence) We need to go easy on the TOP contenders, they already have a lot of Bizness, making $$$$$$$$$$ then spending it on SEO to make more $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ Of course, my blog won't instantly change things, set patterns of a lifetime, But, I try. Sexy pic to make blog's presence felt like Scarlet Joh you know, Photo by  Christopher Czermak  on  Unsplash

Magic! New life! Changed you! Six packs! Bank people calling you to let you know that your money has grown exponentially overnight Nasa offer letter Googles even bigger offer letter. Yes, all this is true. Come on you can DO IT! It's within you Universe. Karma. Jumping More Jumping... and then? Life again back to square one. Bulging tummies frowned faces and squinted eyes fixated on a youtube video titled "Most inspiring speech ever" Thing is... self-help articles are like chocolate bars, makes you feel good, next bite little more good, the third bite OH WOW and when it's over mind going....wait that's it? I am going to give you a  killer self-help advice now because I have read quite a lot on this topic (8 billion articles and 98483848343 minutes and counting) Do. Now, check this completely random pic to make my blog look like the BAUSS. Photo by  Nick Fewings  on  Unsplash

To be honest, for the most part of my life I have been a self-help hog. You give me any article with a click- baity tittle something on the lines like, 3 tips to change your life and become hyperproductive 20 small habits that will boost your life The only life advice you need chances are I would have clicked on it. Oogled on its content, given the circuits in my brain instant, feel-good fodder (just found the title to my next blog, Self-help = Feel good fodder) and then moved on feeling great about reading that piece of information....days later life is still the same. After analyzing 85 billion articles from the domain of self-help and going 'Ah Haa'  over each one of them, I noticed a few things, a few universal truths Do/Doing is the only way forward Do'Doing leads to unknown failures, and them failures make live beautiful going forward Fear is real, Fear is felt by everyone Progress is a subjective thing, some take huge strides so go the baby ste...

Are there happy hormones and sad hormones in our body? Ya. But sad hormones are nothing but the body not being able to produce certain essential hormones that eventually F#$Ks the body up. That's just sad. More on happy hormones now, Ya. Serotonin, Dopamine, Oxytocin, Endorphins, Norepinephrine, Adrenalin These are the so-called happy hormones, or hormones that seem to regulate our happiness. When we exercise we release a mix of Endorphins and adrenaline into our bloodstream. We start feeling like Jason Statham from the movie Crank. Dopamine is released when we achieve something. Like right now I am feeling mini droplets of dopamine being registered in my brain as I finish writing each para each sentence each word. Oxytocin is best described by the bonding of mother to her child. Even other mammals other than humans (the most greedy mammal) are said to be releasing oxytocin. Serotonin, contrary to popular belief is actually produced in the stomach rather th...

<insert a SAX intro to please audience with words> We all have an inner voice ....said every self-help guru ever No, but seriously you know you have felt it... creeping in at times when least expected and then creeping it in broad daylight. What is the nature of this voice? ...I assume some fella on top of a chilly mountain must have figured it out but he ain't sharing that on a facebook status update any time soon. From personal experience, This inner voice has let me down more often than I would have liked or should have allowed it to. From personal experience again, self-help material be it books or newsletters, or seminars and webinars DO NOT HELP. In fact after bathing myself in 896669 minutes of self-help I can claim this with assurity that you end up feeling sorrier for yourself while that inner cunt  voice keeps tangling it's fingers smirking at you. Seriously, I have had so much of this inner voice that I imagine it to ...

If you are a blogger, who likes writing on cool things (like smartphones, whey protein), or on not-so-cool things (like the color grey, the composition of plastic) or just things (like god) you would have very well at some point of time during your ordeal felt the need to research. (that line had 35 words, just saying) Research! All bloggers like to research. But why?  So as to give you best of material to read and caress your eyes upon. But I have found this need to research as something of a hindrance.  It's like after writing every line I feel like going on research mode. "According to..." "Based on.." "As cited on the..." For far too long this need to research and produce only gold stuff for my readers (total read count: 1 and half) I have actually not written ANYTHING. "What's the point?" (ah! them depression laced thoughts again, I welcome thee) my inner conscious says.... So f...

Thank you Nike. For? For, "Just Do it" Or In my case, Just Write it. or Just Write. W ell why did this blog begin with thanking Nike? Am I a shoe to you? Nike for long has been running ad campaigns with that said slogan.  It's so brutally simple ....  Just....do...it! Well, that's the thing,  For people with depression they can't just seem to Just...do...it! They are more in the "why to just do it?" " Give me one reason I should do it, knowing very well that I will fail"...I will fail anyways sorta mindset. (Even while wearing Nike shoes, just FYI) Why I say so?  Just ask around the most depressed person in your group/family. Tell them to do something fun, something new, something interesting, most often then not you might just get a *sad sign* from them Hey wait, have I been depressed?  Who knows? was I just footage khao-ing? ( eating footage, screentime) Why a...

So its yet another day. I wake up feeling staring at the blank ceiling; a hollow void within. I step out of bed and immediately the thoughts to sleep again come rushing in. This isn't lethargy. Or is it? I am not sure anymore. I am lost. blank and hollow. This is familiar territory. The one I fear, the one I can't seem to escape.  This is what my life has been for the last five months. Now I am scared, will this feeling ever leave me. Am I doomed forever?  Depression is not just a fancy word, it's a lifestyle and I seem to be killing it! Photo by  Ian Espinosa  on  Unsplash Finally, this blog goes live on the 24th of March, 2019!