Where does the voice go when you ask it where it is?

We all have an inner voice ....said every self-help guru ever

No, but seriously you know you have felt it...

creeping in at times when least expected and then creeping it in broad daylight.

What is the nature of this voice? ...I assume some fella on top of a chilly mountain must have figured it out but he ain't sharing that on a facebook status update any time soon.

From personal experience, This inner voice has let me down more often than I would have liked or should have allowed it to.

From personal experience again, self-help material be it books or newsletters, or seminars and webinars DO NOT HELP.

In fact after bathing myself in 896669 minutes of self-help I can claim this with assurity that you end up feeling sorrier for yourself while that inner ~~cunt~~ voice keeps tangling it's fingers smirking at you.

Seriously, I have had so much of this inner voice that I imagine it to have a face like the one which ususally is shown like that of a devil with horns, purple skin, eyes pointy and stuff

It's made me,

Doubt my future
Feel bad almost like keeping a bitter medicine on the tongue about the past
Be jealous of other people's achievements
Think of others as somewhat superior
Think that one bite of ice cream has now made me fat! (this is the milder shade)

But none of this is true....said every self-help influenced post ever

But,

I am only getting to experience this, in its real essence while I am writing this blog.

TBH, I have procrastinated over writing this blog (while reading about why procrastination happens for 345323437 minutes)

Finally, when I am now ready to face myself, accept where I stand today, the voice has now suddenly disappeared.

I just heard that voice say, "Abhishek You suck. Stop writing, Read about how to write first and then write". "Dude you suck" "Dude, stop it already" "Dude, one more red line over that word", stop doing this shit already.

Too bad voice,

Not this time.

Here you go, another photo that will make this blog look cool and all.

Photo by Adrien Converse on Unsplash

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