A spiral down my thoughts

So its yet another day. I wake up feeling staring at the blank ceiling; a hollow void within. I step out of bed and immediately the thoughts to sleep again come rushing in. This isn't lethargy. Or is it? I am not sure anymore.

I am lost. blank and hollow. This is familiar territory. The one I fear, the one I can't seem to escape.

This is what my life has been for the last five months. Now I am scared, will this feeling ever leave me. Am I doomed forever?

Depression is not just a fancy word, it's a lifestyle and I seem to be killing it!

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Finally, this blog goes live on the 24th of March, 2019!

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